

Downloading them would maybe be a good way to find if any of them are hard to find and someone else might appreciate a copy available even if the quality isn’t great. if they are findable in better quality but the VHS or DVD has ads, PSAs, bumpers, special features, etc between that might be rare too
Don’t let yourself become a caricature of yourself, step outside your self expectations and find ways to face your fears. I didn’t really know what I wanted to do until my mid 20s. You don’t need to plan it all out from the outset, spend some time trying stuff and learning who you are and what you wouldn’t mind spending time on getting good at.